This is why I miss Kyle. I feel like if we still had a thing, then we’d be hanging out all summer and I would have something to do everyday. But he won’t talk to me anymore and everyone else is going to be gone. I get to sit at my house all day doing nothing for the entire summer.
I want to be surrounded by my friends. Not my family. I feel left out of everything. I just want to hang out with my friends. We have early release tomorrow and Friday and it seems like all of my friends have made plans to hang out with their friends all day and I don’t have any plans. My only plans are to just go home and sit in my room. I don’t want to do that. I want to go be with people and be outside and just not be alone. I’m going to be alone all summer. Kaci’s gonna be gone, Cameron’s probably gonna go to Haley’s house everyday, and my parents are at work everyday. I’m going to be by myself all summer.
I just don’t understand why it isn’t socially acceptable to stay in bed all day long and watch lame romantic comedies and drink coffee and read books in your underwear. Whoever established all these “get a job, be successful” conventions really needs a serious beating. I didn’t sign the terms and conditions for this shit.
• slept in until 11
• found out where my pokemon game went (cameron has it, of course)
• cleaned my room
• organized my closet
• started and finished my project for biology that is due tomorrow in first period
• found my old iPod with all my old songs on it that I lost
And I was lazy for the rest of the day. I also decided that I want to get some fringe. I’m very excited about that! Now I’m off to the shower and then to read My Brother’s Keeper. Goodnight.
“There’s a loneliness that only exists in one’s mind. The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”—F. Scott Fitzgerald (via cite-belle)
This is my last week of school. I will never be a freshman in high school again THANK GOD. So I’m excited. Plus things have been getting difficult and I’m in desperate need of a break. Even though my summer is going to be extremely long and boring, I really needed a break from school. But I have finals all week and I need to do good on them because I need to pass all my classes. Weeehhhh :c school will be over soon enough and then I’ll be able to relax.
Then in a couple of weeks, my church is going to south padre for a week and even though Blake isn’t going anymore, I’m still really excited! I’m going to grow in my relationship with God and also in my relationships with my friends. I’m also going to relax some more and get tan! And then I’m going to invest the rest of my summer time into working out and Courtney’s going to be my work out buddy :) hopefully I have a productive summer.